all about me
another snurched meme, this one from direwolfdragon. Because I’m bored and trying to relax despite the mess around me like the therapist told me.
What is your name? full name is Jennifer Nicole but I’ve gone by Jen for most of my adult life
Are you named after anyone? nope, they were just the 2 names my parents liked best. They had no idea Jennifer was sucha popular name in the late 70s. Guess they didn’t have any friends with kids, lol.
Would you name a child of yours after you? we considered using Nicole as a middle name for our oldest. We were going to name her Kiley Nicole but I changed my mind a couple week before she was born so we ended up with Meagan Greer instead.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? I forget…my parents had a list of boys names for me
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? I kind of like my name. Sure it was annoying growing up with at least one other Jen/Jenny/Jennifer in every class but now I consider it kind of a fun club that we all belong to. When you mention your name is Jen to another Jen you get a knowing look from them–they instantly understand what that has meant your entire life. That’s why my screen name most places is “justanotherjen” (came up with that after I made up my livejournal).
Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people do with your name? I’ve had a few people ask me how to spell Jennifer which I never got. Is there really a huge amount of people that spell it differently?
Do you live in the moment? not really, trying to be more in the moment and less dwelling in the past
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? yep, unless you’ve done something to lose my tolerance (like acting like an asshat)
Do you have any secrets? of course
Do you hate yourself? most of the time…working on that, too
Do you like your handwriting? sometimes
Do you have any bad habits? lots of them
What is the compliment you get from most people? I’m bad at accepting compliments, I tend to tune them out so I have no idea what people say about me other than in relation to my kids…people always compliment me on how well behaved the kids are when we are out in public
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Insanity Run Rampant…(that’s a long internal joke that no one will get because you’re not me but the subtitle of my journal is “random insanity for the insanely random”, lol. It’s a theme.
Can you sing? not well but that doesn’t stop me, lol
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no, I hate posers
Are you a loner? yes, by nature
What are your #1 priorities in life? making sure my kids grow up to be productive, well adjusted members of society, maybe feeling less insane
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? in my current condition…probably not
Are you a daredevil? no
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? that I’ll completely snap some day and hurt somebody I love
Are you passive or aggressive? mostly passive aggressive
What is your greatest strength and weakness? weakness…too many thing to mention, strengths…loyalty, determination, don’t know
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? my brain chemistry…so I wouldn’t feel so crazy all the time
Do you think you are emotionally strong? hahahahahahahaha
Do you think life has been good so far? probably but my fucked up brain won’t let me see it
What do you like the most about your body? my eyes, they’re about the only thing that doesn’t offend me
Do you think you are good looking? used to (even when I was severely overweight) but anymore I feel ugly
Are you confident? nope
What is the fictional character you are most like? no idea
Are you perceived wrongly? all the time
Smoke? nope, never tried it. My mom was a smoker and I got enough 2nd hand smoke to last me a lifetime. I didn’t realize how much it effected my health until I went off to college. I stopped getting sick all the time (like monthly, down to once or twice a year after I moved out) and every time I’d go home I’d suddenly have issues breathing (sinuses) or catch some kind of cold or start coughing all the time.
Read the newspaper? nope. I did in high school when my parents got the paper every day. My routine was to get up, get dressed and read the paper until my brother was ready for school and our ride came. He’d still be running around crazy and I’d be all the way to the comics at the end.
Go to church? nope–I’m atheist. I haven’t been to a church service in 13 years
Talk to strangers who IM you? I don’t IM so I don’t get random people IMing me
Sleep with stuffed animals? used to but our idiot landlord threw away my stuffed bunny during a botched move in 2007. 😦
Take walks in the rain? mostly out of necessity now. Had to walk to the store the other day and it started pouring. Sigh. Luckily it stopped for our walk home and we didn’t get too wet. But that’s pretty normal here in the winter. I LOVED walking in the snow back in the day. I’d do that for fun.
Talk to people even though you hate them? if I have to
Drive? I know how, have a license but I don’t drive because our truck isn’t legally registered. I refuse to get a ticket because my husband has been too lazy and cheap to renew the registration for 3 years (long story)
Like to drive fast? I prefer to stay within 5 miles of the speed limit. I’m non-confrontational like that.
Believe in life on other planets? sure, makes sense that we wouldn’t be the only planet with life, intelligent or otherwise
Miracles? not really
Magic? not the mystical kind
Luck? not intellectually but I still talk like it’s real because it’s a way to vent frustration about the crappy stuff that happens
Witches? not in the green faces, flying on a broomstick sense
Easter bunny? no
Believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever? physically–sure, that just takes willpower. But in the heart…I’m sure it’s probably possible but I don’t think it’s as easy as people make it out to be. I think the mind will want what it wants even if it isn’t what’s best for it (the whole grass is always greener thing). My parents were together for 29 years before my mom died and I know my dad never wandered. I’m sure my mom never did either although she got very close to another man when I was a kid (which greatly upset my dad) but I know she would never cheat physically…who knows what she was thinking internally. I know they loved each other tremendously and would still be together, celebrating their 40th anniversary this year, had my mom not died. My dad will die alone because he was devastated when she died and will never love anyone the way he loved her.
Believe there’s a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? I wish
Do you wish on stars? if I’m feeling silly
Deep Theological Questions…
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? nope, don’t believe in heaven and hell at all
Do you think God has a gender? don’t believe in gods
Do you believe in organized religion? nope, and that started long before I was fully atheist
Where do you think we go when we die? in the ground or in an urn (well, a little heart shaped paper mache box if you are my mom)
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? not that I know of, I did in college
Your favourite inside joke? Well, it wouldn’t be an “inside joke” if I told everyone, now would it
Last person you talked to online? don’t remember, I’ve chatted with a lot of people in the last week
Who are you on the phone with most? I don’t make phone calls. The last time I talked on the phone was a few weeks ago and it was a brief conversation with my husband about something or other. I have no idea why he didn’t just text me like usual.
Who do you trust most? no one really, but I’m working on that
Do you trust others easily? basic trust…yes, but deep down trust (as in depending on them with my life) not at all
Do your friends know you? maybe
Friend that lives farthest away: real life friends…anyone back in Chicago (2000+ miles away), online friends…I have a few that live in Australia
Love and All That…
Do you consider love a mistake? nope
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? don’t care, I’m married and he thinks I’m beautiful
What is best about the opposite sex? dunno
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? oh, I could go on and on about this one
Are you in love? yes, for 12 1/2 years. We’ll be celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary in January.
Right This Moment…
Are you going out? no, it’s raining
What are you wearing right now? haven’t gotten dressed today so sweat pants, the t-shirt I wore the last 2 days (gross…I’ve been so lazy lately) and slippers…none of it matching in any way, lol
What are you worried about right now? money
What book are you reading? not reading any books but I’m working through rachel500‘s Aftershocks series (somewhere in season 4 right now…just hit the stories revolving around 2010)
Are you bored? all the time
Are you tired? most of the time
Are you talking to anyone online? no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no
Are you lonely or content? just bored, lol
Are you listening to music? no, it’s blissfully quiet in the house…husband is at work, kids are at school and Jack is sleeping. The only noise is my fingers typing and the hum of the fridge. And the patter of rain outside.