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Six Sentences on Sunday

sixsentences~~ Each Sunday, post six sentences from a writing project —published, in progress, for your cat — whatever. ~~

From a Buffy fic for the prompt: she still misses her mother every day

One month later, she could feel again. Whatever that was worth because they weren’t feelings she wanted.

After a year, Buffy grew frustrated. The weight still pressed tightly on her chest. She still cried into her pillow at night. Still caught herself talking to ghosts.

Today is Mother’s Day. It’s my 18th year as a mother. It’s my 18th one without my mom. Eighteen years and I still think about her every single day. It’s no longer overwhelmingly sad, though. It just is. And yet, I still get this urge to call my mom when one of the kids does something especially memorable. It’s a letdown every time I remember I can’t.

Sometimes I still cry in my pillow.

Six Sentences on Sunday

sixsentences~~ Each Sunday, post six sentences from a writing project —published, in progress, for your cat — whatever. ~~

A blast from the past… six (plus) sentences from an old Buffy the Vampire Slayer fic. Merry Christmas.

“I didn’t get you anything,” she said, her voice cracking a little.

“Wasn’t expectin’ anything in return, pet. Isn’t that what Christmas is about? Giving, not receiving?”

Buffy met his gaze, his face a little blurry behind the tears. “I don’t know what to say,” she whispered.

Spike cracked a smile. “Thank you’s the preferred expression in these kinda situations.”

Buffy the Vampire Slayer fic: All I Want for Christmas is You

buffyspikeAll I Want for Christmas is You
by jennickels (aka Jen Connelly)
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
1322 words
rating: PG

Set in season six. Buffy’s back from the dead and still having a hard time dealing with life; Christmas is almost more than she can handle. While her friends take a break from the chaos that is their lives, Buffy sneaks out, only to find Spike doing his stalker routine. But things aren’t always as bad as they seem, and neither is Spike.

don’t own… wish I did, but I don’t. No infringement intended.

The door clicked softly behind Buffy. She pulled her sweater tighter around her as she sat on the back steps. Her breath hung in the cool December air. From inside, she could hear her friends singing carols, buzzed on too much spiked eggnog. She leaned her head into her hands; everything was so hard.

After a moment, she took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. “What do you want, Spike?”

Spike chuckled. “You always seem to know where I am, love.”

“I could smell the smoke.” Read more…

On Eliza Dushku playing Buffy


from Buffy Wikia user BuffySlayer345

To battle my growing depression (or to wallow in it; take your pick) I’ve started a Buffy rewatch. I’m currently watching season 4, episode 16–the second part of the Buffy and Faith switheroo episode–and I’m blown away at Eliza Dushku’s ability to capture Sarah Michelle Gellar’s mannerisms as Buffy.

Sarah did pretty well with Faith in certain scenes. The bathroom one with Buffy making faces in the mirror was pretty funny, and a few of those definitely looked like Faith, but the scene where Faith shows up at Giles’ house, begging him to believe she is Buffy is uncanny. It kind of gives me goosebumps.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer fic: Okay

by jennickels (aka Jen Connelly)
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
100 words
rating: PG

Buffy tries to come to terms with her loss at the end of the season 7.

don’t own… wish I did, but I don’t. No infringement intended.

It seems like forever ago. Years since the end. Or was that just the beginning? It’s all blurring together. It’s been four months since we walked away from the Hellmouth. I should be okay. I want to be okay. I pretend to be okay. But when I’m alone… I’m not okay.

It was his choice, I tell myself. It was his redemption. I should be proud. I am. I should be happy for him. I am. I should be okay with it. I’m not.

All I can think of is that he’s not here. And I’m not okay with that.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer fic: Skeletons

by jennickels (aka Jen Connelly)
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
158 words
rating: PG

There are some things meant to be kept in the past. A little internal dialogue as Angel tries to keep his past… in the past.

don’t own… wish I did, but I don’t. No infringement intended.

She wants to know my past—all the sordid details. She says she can handle it. Because she loves me. But there are some things meant to be kept in the past. I tried to explain. Tried to make her understand. But she wants to know. Needs to know.

She stares at me with wide, pleading eyes but I look away. My stomach knots up. Then forms knots on top of the knots. I’ve dreaded this day since I let her into my life. Too many things I don’t want her to know about me. Just another consequence of two hundred years of living. Too many skeletons in my closet. Literally.

“Angel, please,” she whispers. I don’t know what is driving her, keeping her on this track. But I’ve never been able to deny her. Still…

How do I tell her? How can I steal what little innocence she has left? Why can’t she just let this go?

no scrapbook page of the day…

I realize I haven’t been doing one.  There’s no real reason.  Mostly it’s because I haven’t been doing a lot of scrapping the past few weeks.  I think I’ve done 4 pages since the beginning of the month (all on one day last week).  I have a finite amount of finished pages and if I keep putting one up every day I’ll run out in a few weeks.

So, now I just put one up when I feel like it, lol.

Also (thanks to my ADD) I’ve had to switch gears to a new hobby so I don’t get bored with scrapping.  I’ve been playing the Sims 2 a little more this week.  I just got the new EP–Apartment Life and had fun building a crazy apartment complex where the apartments are all odd sizes and shapes and overlap each (in every direction).

I finished watching all the Angel episodes last week and picked up watching Buffy again.  When I stopped before I was just starting season 4.  Now I’m in the middle of season 5.  So I’ve been doing that a lot more.  I’ve only seen most of the episodes once.

And, of course, the kids are back to school now.  That means I’m a little more busy.  I’m up at 6:30am every morning.  I have to help my 5yo get dressed (she can’t put her uniform on without help), I have to get my 2yo changed and dressed because my husband is also back to work and that means Nora (the 2yo) has to walk with us in the morning.

Because of all the changes I started a new routine for us (I think I mentioned that before) and now I take Nora and we go for a walk after we drop the older kids off.  Then we come home, have a snack, and then I clean something until lunch and then find something else to clean after lunch.

It’s working pretty well.  On Monday I was just super busy with the kids and school so no cleaning (I had to walk to and from the school 3 times that day then we walked to the store–all by lunch time.  On Tuesday I took Nora for a walk then we visited with a friend until lunch.  Then I cleaned the living room and mopped before school got out.  On Wednesday my husband had off (he worked one whole day and then had 2 days off, lol) so I left Nora and went for a quick walk to the store just to get a Dr. Pepper (major craving) then at 9:30 I started cleaning the kids’ room.  I stopped for 15 minutes at lunch time and then went back to work.  It took me until almost 1:30pm to get it all cleaned and straightened up.  Then, of course, my son wet his bed that night so now his stuffed animals and sheets are on the floor (waiting for the matress to dry).

I’ve done like 6 loads of laundry in the last week.  Normally I do the kids’ laundry on Sunday and me and hubby’s whenever the basket gets full (usually every other week).  I’ve already washed the kids clothes twice, the baby’s clothes, my clothes and 2 loads of towels/bedding.

Yesterday I took the day off.  My knees are killing me from all the walking and going up and down the stairs and my legs are just sore.  It’s a good feeling kind of sore but it still hurts to move so I figured I deserved a break after all the cleaning I did on Wed.  Instead I played the Sims 2 and watched Buffy and just did nothing.  Well, I did a couple loads of laundry, a load of dishes and cooked dinner.

No rest for the wicked, right?

Today (if it doesn’t rain) I’m going to take Nora for a quick walk then to the park to kill time until the library opens at 9am.  Then we’re going to the library for a bit (she’s never been and I’ve never been to this particular branch so it should be fun).  Then we’ll go home, have a snack and I’ll probably clean her room.  She decided to redecorate with black crayon all over.  Hopefully I can get most of it off.  Then we’ll have lunch and I’ll clean up the dining room.

Or maybe I’ll skip that and do the kitchen.  It needs the most work and tomorrow is our annual block party and my friend and her kids are coming over to celebrate with us which means people are going to be in my house and it is a mess (well, certain rooms are).

And, since you got this far, here’s a random scrapbook page:
Run Wild

I did this one early in my scrapping career with Microsoft Picture It.  I really like this picture even though it is blurry.  Good memories.

yeah, I’m a fan

Joss Whedon is the man and I’m a big dork, I know.  This is my collection of Joss work…a little of everything.  I knit the hat myself.  The kids love it and wore it as much as I did and pulled the yarn ball off of the top.  I made a 2nd one but never put the ear flaps on and I used that all winter.  I still have requests to fill from all 4 of my kids.

It isn’t a big a collection but it is growing.

Ordered it Tuesday afternoon, it came Friday morning

Ordered it Tuesday afternoon, it came Friday morning

My youngest daughter wearing the Jayne hat (I had to fight her to get it back)

My youngest daughter wearing the Jayne hat (I had to fight her to get it back)

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