ME: Wow, look at the time; I should really get to bed. I’ll just check one thing on [insert any social media here].
Every fucking night.
I used to enjoy laundry. Well, not enjoy, but I didn’t hate it. When the kids were babies it was a nice break from their chaos. I would sneak down to the basement and the thumping of the dryer or the whooshing of the washer would drown out the noise from upstairs (when the kids weren’t sitting at the top of the stairs asking when I was coming up).
But as the years have gone by and the kids clothes have gotten bigger and, therefore, the amount of clothes have grown and the amount of space said clothes take up has grown the chore has become…well, a chore. I dread laundry. Not because of the actual doing it but because it seems to be never ending. The kids bring it down and I start it. It all smells like pee because I have 2 bedwetters. I get most of it done only to find out they did’t bring all the clothes down in the first place or because in the 3 days it took me to wash and dry it all they mad a whole other load to wash.
The constant changing of outfits has become a real annoyance. With 4 kids, changing 3 or 4 times a day and throwing the used clothes in the hamper (whether dirty or not) creates a ton of laundry at the end of the week. And since they throw their wet, peed clothes on top everything has to be washed whether it was dirty when it went in the hamper or not.
This ended yesterday. I had left the basket of clean clothes in the basement because I was just tired of cleaning up and went on strike. Since the kids didn’t feel like putting the clothes away they have been digging through the basket for clean clothes every day, in the process throwing them all over the dirty basement floor. Then they would walk on them on their way out the basement door, my son threw his wet clothes on top of them, wet towels, bathing suits, etc.
I reached my breaking point yesterday morning and marched my 9yo daughter down the stairs and said SHE was doing the laundry. She wasn’t very happy about this because she bucks any kind of chores. So I explained how to set the washer and where to get the soap. Then she helped me load it as I explained how to distribute the clothes to keep the weight even. She grumbled through the whole thing and kept saying, “but I only have to wash MY clothes, right?”
While that was washing I brought up their basket and set the kids to folding. I showed them how to fold shirts for the hundredth time. My 9yo refused to help so we left her stuff in a pile on the floor. My 7yo and 6yo kids folded and put away all their clothes and it all went rather smoothly.
When the wash was done I took my 9yo down to show her how to load the dryer. I had to find an old milk crate for her to stand on to reach into the washer. Even with that she could just barely reach the bottom. With each scoop of wet clothes she had to jump off the crate and walk over to the dryer to throw them in. There was a lot of clothes in the washer and half way through she was whining her back hurt and she didn’t want to do it any more. Kids are so funny.
So she got the dryer loaded and I explained about the lint trap and how to set the dryer. When that was started I had her load up the washer with her 3yo sister’s clothes. My 6yo helped with that then she finally set to folding her clean clothes.
Later that night I remembered the laundry and told her to go take the clean clothes out of the dryer and put them in a basket and take the wet clothes and put them in. She grumbled about hating laundry but went to do it with the help of the 6yo. An hour later they were cleaning up from dinner and she was whining she didn’t want to sweep or scrub tables so down to the basement she went to empty the dryer. I wasn’t down there when she loaded it up last but all the clothes were dry so she did it right and her brother carried up the basket.
So, laundry done, and none of it by me. YAY! I just have to fold my 3yo’s clothes.
From now on the kids are doing their own laundry. Next they learn to load the dishwasher.
So I’m supposed to write about some of the great memories I have of May 2009. I just can’t do it. No matter what I think about, no matter how well the rest of the month is going, no matter how nice the weather has been or how quiet my Mother’s Day was it is all overshadowed by May 2, 2009. The day I miscarried our 5th child in the bathroom at the ER. I was 12 weeks and anticipating a new baby in November 2009. Instead I’m just trying to get my life back to normal and not think about what I lost.
Fun times…not. It’s just one of those events that eclipses everything else.
For the FOBTY at Sweet Shoppe Designs.
You Are Chirping Birds
You are a very caring person. You especially feel for innocent beings, like animals and children.
You are keyed in to the world and very peaceful. You believe that everyone is connected.
You remain focused and in the moment. You are not easily distracted.
You have a good memory, especially for things that you hear. You listen carefully.
So, it’s been an interesting week. Ok, not really but we had some things happen.
I came very close to strangling my 8yo on Friday (not literally). Instead I sent her away for the weekend so the rest of us could relax. She is a pain in the butt.
My 6yo lost another tooth on Friday night. That’s her 5th tooth. Now she’s missing both top teeth and one on the bottom. By this age her older sister had only lost 1 tooth and her brother had lost 2. Funny thing is she started losing teeth a lot earlier then either of them (she was only 5 1/2 when her first tooth fell out last summer) but she was the latest teether of them all. She didn’t get her first tooth until after she turned 1.
My son learned to tie his shoes the other day. This is a big accomplishment for him. He has some serious issues with perfectionism and when he can’t figure something out right away he considers it a lost cause, that he’s too stupid to learn it and it’s pointless to try again. He’s 7.
On Monday, the kids bought new shoes and the sneakers we found for him had laces. He cried and cried that he would not wear them at all because he can’t tie (his school shoes have laces but I usually double knot them because his teacher won’t tie them for him any more). So that night I tried to show him for the hundredth time and he just wasn’t getting the 2 bunny ear method, which is usually easier for kids to learn (it’s how my 8yo learned when she was 6).
I could see where he was having trouble so I suggested he try the regular way with just one loop. He sat in my lap and we did it together a couple times and then, BAM, he got it. He’s now tying his sneakers on his own but needs more practice to get them tight. He can’t seem to do his school shoes yet because the laces are shorter and thinner but he’ll figure it out. I’m so proud.
And then we get to the dishwasher. I did dishes over the weekend but had been putting off doing the rest so they’ve been piling up for a few days. Lesson learned…do them right away.
My dad loaded up the dishwasher yesterday only to find it wasn’t working. This dishwasher is at least 35 years old (we’ve had it for about 19 years) so it’s seen better days but it has served us well. With 7 people in the house we NEED a dishwasher. I can not go back to hand washing. But as it is I now have every single bowl in the house in the sink, half the silverware and about a dozen small cups (I swear I’m tossing all but 1 for each kid) plus several pots and pans. Grrr. It’s going to take me all freaking day to do the dishes.
My dad is going to pull the dishwasher out and see if it is an easy fix. He’s repaired the thing more times then I can count. But most likely we will be getting a new dishwasher.
That’s nice and all. I would love a new dishwasher that doesn’t make it sound like giants are invading down the street but it’s like $600 (not including delivery and warranty) that my dad doesn’t have. We get our income taxes back at the end of the week but I know he’s already going to tell us he doesn’t want the money for it. He’s just like that.
But, whatever. It’s his money, his retirement, his life.
So, lost tooth, near strangling, learned to tie shoes, need a new dishwasher. Fun week.
It’s been a crazy few weeks around here. I’ve got my computer running well enough to use PSE again but only by taking the side off of the case and blowing a fan directly onto the graphics card. Hubby has now said I can get a new computer with our tax return (YAY!). I configured one through Costco.com and it has everything I want. Our return should be in our account on the 20th (next Friday…would have been here already but I ran into an issue with Turbo Tax and it never actually filed back in January, grrrr) and then I can order it and it will take a week to build and then however long to ship it so I should have a new computer some time in March and for about $800.
Anyway, because of my computer issues I lost my one CT job with Laura Burger. I just couldn’t keep up with the commenting requirement because, at the time, I was only able to get on for an hour or less and then my computer would overheat and it would take hours to cool off and I couldn’t run PSE at all. So I quit that CT after only working officially for a few days.
But I had already applied to a couple others before I had the our hour issue. I had just figured out the open case with the fan trick and had literally just quit working for Laura when I heard back from Valorie Brown that I made her team. Wow! I was squealing with glee at that point. Then later that day (this was Sunday) I heard back from another designer that I made her team, too. Double WOW!
So far I’m loving both groups. Neither have the crazy commenting requirements of Laura that I just can’t keep up with because of my crazy life so they work well for me. I’ve worked with Val’s stuff a lot. I’ve been shopping at The Funky Playground for awhile (their $1 Thursdays rock) so I have a lot of her kits already. I had never even heard of my other designer but I checked her stuff out and loved it so thought I would apply.
So now I’m on 3 teams all thanks to Shen at creashens for offering me my first CT job and introducing me to the world of creative teams. Thanks Shen.
I actually have one other application out there. I applied to Bren Boone. I had told myself no new CTs since I just got two new ones and I’m still trying to work out a daily schedule (and I HATE schedules) to fit all my stuff into 24 hours but I couldn’t pass it up. She’s another designer I had never heard of and I said so in the application and she actually wrote me back thanking me for my honesty (I said I had no clue why I would be good for her team since I had never heard of her…I really hate answering those questions) and that I made her laugh. I’ll hear back from her by the end of the week I guess (the call is over on Friday I think).
My knee and shoulder are both finally feeling better so I’m also trying to get back into my exercise routine so hopefully I’ll have more energy again and that means more cleaning (good for the house, bad for my scrapping time).
Next month should be interesting. The kids start spring classes at the park. I’m not quite sure which ones they are taking but all 4 kids will be involved now. I think, though, most of the classes Nora would take don’t start until May so that will be some relief but May will be crazy with her taking classes along with the last month of school and the other kids classes.
Brenna has gymnastics tonight. Next week is their “gym show” so they have rehersal Wednesday night and then performances on Thursday and Friday nights. All 3 older kids are in this (Brenna has 2 classes so gets to be out there twice).
Besides being injured and recovering from a little cold (that left me unable to breathe for almost a week) I’ve had so many computer problems my head is swimming.
I thought I could fix them but the more I’ve looked into it the more I realize my computer is a lost cause. I could fix it but it would mean replacing almost every single component. The CPU looks like it is still good (although I now have a replacement for it) but the motherboard is having issues or at the least is out of date (and discontinued). The heatsink on the graphics card (which they also don’t make any more) is loose so the GPU is overheating. The fans are refusing to kick into high gear to keep the inside of the case cool. I can’t really replace the GPU because my power supply is only 300w and most cards need something more powerful.
The only way I’m able to even use the computer is to take the side off of the case and blow my window fan directly onto the GPU. That keeps it cool enough to run PSE and play on the internet.
So it looks like some of our income tax return will go towards a new computer. I discovered Costco lets you order online and customize your own computer (like Gateway used to do). The one I figured up was an HP (because that’s what they had). It will have a duo core processor at 2.9mhtz (that’s pretty much what I have now) with 3 gigs of memory (I have 2 now), a 650 gig hard drive (or maybe up to 750…I have 500 right now and no where near close to being filled up), a nice 512mb graphics card (mine is 256 but that is shared with the ram), TV tuner (which I have now but never use), lightscribe DVD recorder (I have just a regular DVD recorder and an extra DVD rom that I could add into the new case).
So the one I’m looking at isn’t super high end but since the one I have now, before it went on the fritz, ran everything I needed just fine with what it had I see no reason to go bankrupt trying to get top of the line.
I was going to do 4 gigs of RAM but that meant upgrading to Vista 64bit but none of my games or programs will run on it (like PSE7 which I HAVE to have) so what’s the point. 2 gigs of RAM has been working just fine for me so far so 3 should be fine. The most graphic intensive game I play is Sims 2 and it runs (or did before the computer died) just fine on my system now (only slight lag when it changes from day to night).
In all the system I’m getting will cost $780. I’ll keep the peripherals I have now even though my 2yo scratched the hell out of my flat panel monitor. It looks crappy but works for now. The speakers are new and I like my keyboard. All I need is to get a new graphics tablet. I long since lost the pen to mine.
I’m just waiting for the government to send us our money. I’m not sure what I’ll do with my old computer. I think I’m going to scavenge the extra DVD player and put it in the new computer. Maybe I’ll donate the rest.
I’ll just be happy to get a fully working computer back. I’ve been running on bare minimums since the end of November.
I swear, the more I try to get healthy and work out…the more obstacles I run into. I know I’m out of shape. I’m 250+lbs so doing exercise is rough on my body, especially my knees and ankles.
The 2nd week of January I did great. I did 10 minutes of cardio every day and 7-10 minutes of strength training. I felt great and my pants already felt looser (that was one of the things that was really bugging me).
Then, while I was cleaning that weekend, I felt my right knee pop…not like they normally do. This was loud and it hurt. Since then I’ve been in pain. It’s been about a month and I’m still hobbling around the house.
A few days ago I was FINALLY able to bend it all the way but I still can’t straighten it all the way out. So it’s getting better. I think getting sick last week and doing nothing but sleeping and lying on the couch helped.
So, of course, now that my knee is feeling better and I can get back to some kind of exercise routine I suffer another injury.
The other day I got mad about something and I went into my room (and in total, immature melodrama) slammed my door. But the way I did it I slammed it with my left arm which meant I was reaching across my body and shoving it closed behind me.
Afterwards my shoulder started to hurt. I guess I pulled or tore a ligament in my shoulder. It really HURTS…all the time. It is killing me to type right now. I can only lift my left arm in certain ways and can’t pick much of anything up in it.
And every time it starts to feel better one of the kids jumps on me or leans up against me and it’s like someone is stabbing me in the shoulder with a screw driver or something.
On top of that, my youngest banged into my arm while trying to sit in the chair with me and now I have a pinched nerve. So I have this line of tingly pain from my shoulder down my arm and into my thumb.
I just want to be back to normal so I can start up the exercise routine again. I felt so much better when I was doing those 10 minutes of cardio a day.
I guess I’ll have to break out the Pilates DVD I have. That should be low impact enough to not hurt my knee, although I can’t do any upper body with my shoulder hurting this much.
Ever since Shen tapped me to be on her CT (a huge honor that pretty much knocked me off my feet and made November like the best month EVER…that and winning NaNo) I have put in some apps to different designers doing calls. I sometimes wonder why I never thought to do that before.
Well, earlier this week I got accepted to a new CT. I’m so excited. I’m now working for Laura Burger, too. You can find her stuff at gottapixel.com and acherryontop.com. Again, I feel totally honored to join the group. I can’t wait to start creating.
But just as when Shen offered me the position on her CT I find I’m totally lacking in time to actually start something new right now, lol. When Shen contacted me NaNo had just started, Brenna’s birthday was in a few days and Thanksgiving was coming up. Everything was going full speed and I wasn’t sure how I would fit her into my schedule. Then my computer crashed…ugh. But somehow the computer is holding together enough to scrap (yay!) and with the kids back in school I am wanting to scrap again.
But now I find I have 2 weeks worth of cleaning to do. I did nothing over winter break since the kids were here to mess it all up again. Now that school is back in I’m looking around the house and going “holy crap, what a mess!”.
I cleaned the kitchen on Thursday and did most of the living/dining room on Friday. I almost had it done when my dad came down and we started chatting. Crap. That always happens and then I get nothing done. I still have to get the dang tree in the basement (although, I finally got all the lights off). Today besides finishing the living room I have to clean my room (because everything just gets tossed in there). Then tomorrow I’m cleaning Nora’s room. Then Monday the upstairs hall and bathroom and then Tuesday the big challenge: the kids’ room.
Plus I’m trying to keep up with my exercising. My head was spinning this morning trying to figure out when to do everything.
Anyway, my point was I’m going to try and ease into this new CT spot. There’s a lot more work with this one with participating in forums and stuff. I’m going to have to make up a schedule and I HATE schedules but otherwise I’m going to lost track of everything I have to do.
I’m feeling pretty good today. The kitchen is pretty clean (dishes are going but the floor still needs to be swept and mopped). I have the living room to finish, my room to clean (I’m optimistic that both will get done). The laundry is going. The tree will get put away today. I’ve already done 2 strength training videos (total of like 16 minutes or so so my arms and abs are pretty sore but it feels good). When the living room is done I’m going to pop in the new country line dance video and have some fun (and burn some calories). Oh, I might actually get to eat lunch in there somewhere, lol.
And then tonight it will all be done and I can relax and work on putting my new kits I’ve bought into the PSE organizer so I can actually use them. Not to mention back everything up. Or I might just watch Angel and have a bowl of popcorn.
Another year over, another begins. Not that it means much to me. Really, it is just another day for me. The biggest even was getting to put the new calendar up on the fridge, lol. Last year we had Disney (because it came free in the mail). This year I got puppies for my 6yo daughter (she is obsessed with dogs). January has 3 chocolate (looking silver) labs…which is really making my 6yo sad because in 2007 we got 2 chocolate lab puppies but had to give them away a few months later when we suddenly had to move. She never got over it. Poor kid.
My New Year’s Eve was pretty normal. I played Guitar Hero World Tour most of the afternoon and evening. I didn’t even realize how late it was until the pizza my dad ordered arrived. I stopped for 2 hours while we ate and watched a movie then played until 9pm.
By then my eyes were burning and my fingers were so sore I could barely bend them, lol. I couldn’t even type last night and my hand still hurts.
After that I stayed up watching Angel DVDs and playing on the computer. Pretty normal night for me. Today we are having steak for dinner. Not just steak, but good steak…rib eye steaks. $50 worth of steak. It’s going to be heavenly. Kind of a bad start to my whole “eating right” resolution, though, because I always eat too much when we have steak.
I’ve made 3 resolutions for the year.
1. lose 60lbs by December 31, 2009 (that’s 5lbs a month)
2. finish my NaNo story and the other two fanfictions I have up that have been sitting unfinished since November 2005 and March 2007, respectively
3. finish a scrapbook for each of the kids by the end of the year and/or finish 365 pages (I did 127 pages last year)
Should be interesting. I might get the Nano one done but I never last long on diets. Last year I did good from Jan 1st-March and then I got sick and kind of just forgot about eating right. If I lose the 60lbs I’ll be around the weight I was before I started having kids (195 or so). Then next year I can work on getting down to my target weight of 140. Right now I’ll just be happy to be back in my size 18s and not have my knees and hips hurting so much.
What I’m most looking forward to is school starting again, lol. Just 4 more days of winter break left. I hate having to get up every morning to walk them to school in the freezing cold but at least they are gone for most of the day. It’s just me and the 2yo (well, almost 3yo now) at home and she’s fun to be around and far less annoying then my other kids.